What do you do when your worst fears come true?
Well, firstly you freak out. You cry, you panic, you break down and admit over and over that you can’t do this. Because after all, you are human. Pain demands to be felt, and so does anxiety a lot of the time.
But after that, you face them. You look at them and you go straight through. You remember. You remember how far you’ve come. You remember that there is always a way to get through. You remember that God’s sovereignty is not void, and that He was not surprised. You remember His Holy Spirit is in you. You remember that you are unstoppable. You remember this world was never home to begin with; why would it be comfortable?
Lately my worst fears have been coming true. I don’t know how to handle it, I am a feeble human being. I’ve cried to my mom a bunch already. But I don’t think my anxiety is the end of all things (even when it so so feels like it.) I think there is light at the end of the tunnel, and I’m seeing there is a reason patience is such an incredibly important virtue. The pain can’t last. The fears can’t win. This too, shall pass. And Lord knows, I am an impatient human.
But, I am learning. I am learning what “hope” means all over again. I am learning to believe. I am learning to trust. I am learning what thankfulness truly means, and am astounded daily by the people who’ve gotten me this far.
In the end, fear is a liar and it eats away at our hope. We think to ourselves: if that happened, I won’t make it. If this happens, I will never make it through; but the truth of the matter is there is nothing on earth or in us that the Lord cannot overcome. There is nothing in existence that is too hard for Him, and fear is but dust.@53 minutes ago with 2 notes
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