They call me Emily.
Lover of all things inherently true, just, and caffeinated.
Feel free to say hello.
Something I’m learning more and more as I get older is that if you want to get anywhere in your life you truly have to stop making excuses for yourself. This can be especially hard when you’re so unhappy with where you are; it’s easy to find reasons to keep yourself from putting in the effort it takes to change.
There are so many days I want to sit around and wish my way into a different scenario, but that alone won’t do it. I have to make phone calls. I have to get help. I have to line myself up for success even if it takes [so much] time.
I’m probably going to have to move back home for a few months soon. Everything in me has been afraid that if that happens, I will get stuck there. The truth is, I will if I keep making excuses because it is so hard to get everything worked out. It is hard, that’s not an excuse, but it’s not impossible.
And the discomfort it’s taking and will continue to take to change is not worse than staying the same anymore. I’m done with excuses and giving myself reasons to doubt. I can do this, because after all, the Spirit of God is with me, it’s in me. Where is room for lack of movement? It sounds cliche’ sometimes but He didn’t bring me this far to leave me, and I can do all things through Him who strengthens me because He says I can.
I’m choosing to believe that.
I’m choosing to persevere,
day by day.