I'm Merely Human

I had breakfast food for breakfast instead. Does this mean I’m a responsible adult or...

Sat, 25 May 2013 14:11:41 -0500

I had breakfast food for breakfast instead.

Does this mean I’m a responsible adult or something

I kinda want Mexican food for breakfast. I make good life decisions.

Sat, 25 May 2013 11:29:08 -0500

I kinda want Mexican food for breakfast.

I make good life decisions.

Inner-Dialogue

Sat, 25 May 2013 02:07:02 -0500

I have pain in my right hip
and I can’t escape it
I can’t escape this body at all.

Oh, I’ve accepted it
and I don’t want to be reflecting this
Awful truth
is all.

I’m nothing to pity
or feel sorry for.

And I wish I didn’t feel the need to say this every time I say I feel a certain way.

We all have problems,
but mine change the whole image of the rest that look this way.

Being lonely sucks.
Losing family sucks.
We all have things that suck.

And dammit, I didn’t even plan this poem to go this way.
Damn you, small minded society.
Can’t you see that I’m okay?
Can’t I just complain every now & then?
Can’t I still be human, without being some inspiration?

Let’s try this again.

I’m an introvert but I can’t live completely on my own.

I have not-so-irrational fears of being stuck in my bed and dropping my phone.

I yearn to detach but I’m forced to stay connected.

I’m anxiety-ridden and I’m forced to accept it.

I’ll probably never own a house because the government keeps me from saving my money.

And I don’t know if I could ever marry a man who decides to love me,
Knowing that any man who could love me would deserve so much more.

I don’t want my belief in heaven to be forced from the reality of my life down here.
And I don’t want God to be my all just because He’s the only one who can handle me.
I don’t want to be fearful of serving, knowing that I’ll always be wishing I could do more.
And I don’t want all of this to slip me back onto the floor.

Or make anyone believe I’m anything less or anything more, than a sinner saved by grace by the One who whispers and roars.

Despite all of the above I’m still a work in progress, and a hopeful work at that.

dearscience: Coffee & watercolour

Fri, 24 May 2013 22:14:53 -0500

dearscience:

Coffee & watercolour

onceagainwithlove: meowmagicianpia: The awkward “I don’t want to annoy you but I really like...

Fri, 24 May 2013 21:41:21 -0500

onceagainwithlove:

meowmagicianpia:

The awkward “I don’t want to annoy you but I really like talking to you” stage.

you mean my entire life

"there is a place in the heart that will never be filled a space and even during the best..."

Fri, 24 May 2013 12:01:30 -0500

“

there is a place in the heart that

will never be filled

a space

and even during the

best moments

and

the greatest

times

we will know it

more than

ever

there is a place in the heart that

will never be filled

and

we will wait

and

wait

in that

space.

”

- ( “no help for that” - Charles Bukowski: You Get So Alone at Times That It Just Makes Sense )

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Fri, 24 May 2013 10:23:00 -0500

Roommate Wanted

Fri, 24 May 2013 10:21:03 -0500

So I’ll probably end up posting an ad on Craigslist or something if this doesn’t work, but there are usually some pretty awesome people on tumblr, so why not try here first?!

I’m Emily, I’m pretty awesome, and I’m looking for a roommate!

I’ve been looking at an apartment in West Allis, WI. I haven’t checked it out in person yet, but it looks pretty sweet seeing as it’s location is right around where National Ave. & Greenfield meet.

I have inquired information about the apartment, and there are two different 2 bedroom/2 bath units available July 1st. The building was built only a few years ago, so it is fairly new-looking. There’s underground parking if you need it, and it’s right on a bus line.

Rent would be between $515 - $630 a person depending on which unit we choose. Some utilities included.

I’m 19 and probably going to MATC in the fall, and working this summer. So I won’t be home all that much.

I’m physically disabled, so there will be assistants periodically coming and going to help me with the things I can’t do on my own.

I appreciate if you’re a non-smoker or at least don’t smoke inside the apartment.

In my free time I’m either hanging out with friends or family, reading, writing, or at a show at The Rave. I’m pretty down to earth and spend a lot of time on my own.

If you or someone you know is interested, you can either hit me up in my ask, or send me a fanmail, and I’ll give you my number/email and we can talk further about it.

If you read all of this, you’re probably already the perfect roommate.

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Fri, 24 May 2013 09:44:46 -0500

"Because Christians believe we are what the world can be, we can act in the hope that the world can..."

Thu, 23 May 2013 20:50:38 -0500

“”Because Christians believe we are what the world can be, we can act in the hope that the world can and will positively respond to a witness of peace. That witness begins with Christians refusing to kill one another in the name of lesser loyalties and goods.””

- Stanley Hauerwas (via mesmerizedbyyahweh)

“Stay weird, Brooks.” - Derek Shepherd

Thu, 23 May 2013 20:25:41 -0500

“Stay weird, Brooks.” - Derek Shepherd

"Love is the light—and in the end, the only light—that can always illuminate a world grown dim and..."

Thu, 23 May 2013 20:11:02 -0500

“Love is the light—and in the end, the only light—that can always illuminate a world grown dim and give us the courage needed to keep living and working. Love is possible, and we are able to practice it because we are created in the image of God”

- Pope Benedict XVI, God Is Love, 39 (via myadventuresinoddity)

I hate when I accidentally hit ‘unfollow’ instead of dashboard when on peoples blogs.

Thu, 23 May 2013 11:37:55 -0500

I hate when I accidentally hit ‘unfollow’ instead of dashboard when on peoples blogs.

I’m legitimately debating if I should rewatch all of Grey’s Anatomy, or actually live my...

Thu, 23 May 2013 10:02:00 -0500

I’m legitimately debating if I should rewatch all of Grey’s Anatomy, or actually live my life.

Some people think I’m fooling myself when I say this, but if God wills so, I really will not...

Thu, 23 May 2013 09:48:00 -0500

Some people think I’m fooling myself when I say this, but if God wills so, I really will not be at a loss if I’m never in a mans arms on this earth; as long as I’m in the arms of the Son of God for eternity.

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Thu, 23 May 2013 09:16:34 -0500

Real life hate mail I have nice friends.

Wed, 22 May 2013 18:51:12 -0500

Real life hate mail
I have nice friends.

"The beauty of Christianity is that you don’t have to do what you feel. We live above our feelings."

Tue, 21 May 2013 10:35:53 -0500

“The beauty of Christianity is that you don’t have to do what you feel. We live above our feelings.”

- Mark Gungor (via scripturesketches)

Above Generations, Repeat Offenses, and History

Tue, 21 May 2013 09:40:01 -0500

I remember when we were kids, and you were as selfish as you are now.
Time tells the tales of genetics, and God knows I wish I could beat them somehow.
Mom, I never meant to hurt you, but you married a man who was prone to decay,
and a man the opposite of you - and not in the attracting way.
I’ve been wishing and hoping since I was only fifteen, that I could somehow break this curse, and that change would intervene.
It’s like there’s got to be some way we can get along, there must be some room to budge,
I am changing and molding but I’m still all torn up.
And I pray these genes don’t eat me alive, because Lord knows this disease is passed down through the generations.
Every grave I visit and every ash I spread tells a tale of the demon who stole all the hope that they needed to make it.
But somehow I was allowed to live, and somehow I’ve made it this far.
You pulled me up from the depths of despair and renewed everything that was charred.
The story of redemption takes years to renew it’s faith,
but there is not a single day that goes by where I am not reminded of the One who traced my fate.
Should I live out Your path for me, blessed as I am now, all I could hope for is to somehow spread Your name,
Because this life I’ve been given is not my own, Sovereignty takes all the fame;
and I now know that no measurement of darkness, nor doubt within, nor amount of helplessness, or abandonment, or anger, or lies,
Could ever replace the promise that’s been fulfilled by the One watching over all, who blamelessly died.

I need to stop being too impatient for proofreading.

Tue, 21 May 2013 08:23:39 -0500

I need to stop being too impatient for proofreading.